There are a lot of things happened. Now its November 2012. Almost at the end of the year. At every beginning, I pray for a better year with enthusiasm and hope. And at the end of it, I realise nothing much had changed...sometimes its worst than the previous one. Like what had happened this year.
I don't really remember whats the up and down of last year but may conclude this year is not better.
3 big things happen in my life this year:
1. Death of my mother in law
2. My father's health worsened
3. .............
I can accept the first 2. I may consider its fated but the third one is unthinkable.
It really make me sink. It makes me float and some times fly.
I blame myself for being so stupid...so blurry
I was so easily comforted by him every time I confront him on any issue related to his .............He, as usual, used his knowledge in God, faith and all kinds of things related to make me accept.
'You must accept what God has given us'
'You must not deny cause any denial of God's will is sinfull'
'You must try to understand that whats happening is just a journey...please accept it '
I may be so blunt.
I thought he was an angel
After I discover his ..............he never admit it
Though he said sorry many times
I did not feel that he regretted what he had done.
all I know now, I see him differently
he is no more an angel to me.
